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i was expecting an engraved invitation but when you put it like that
i'm going to use the front door this time though
i'm going to use the front door this time though
[ Wow, okay, so that's how it is- ]
please
like i NEED monkey bars
your building is basically a baby route at a climbing gym
please
like i NEED monkey bars
your building is basically a baby route at a climbing gym
aw, i'm touched
but i wouldn't worry, i've fallen out of planes before and survived
[ Never mind the fact that his last big fall may have been fatal. ]
eta like 20 minutes
but i wouldn't worry, i've fallen out of planes before and survived
[ Never mind the fact that his last big fall may have been fatal. ]
eta like 20 minutes
we need to talk about your life insurance policy and also what the fuck.
[ But just to be an asshole, he's taken the floor out in front of the door so it's a nice wide hole to the floor below, and a happy stretch of monkey bars over the top bridging the gap. The convenience of living over the maintenance rooms, no downstairs neighbor to balk. ]
[ But just to be an asshole, he's taken the floor out in front of the door so it's a nice wide hole to the floor below, and a happy stretch of monkey bars over the top bridging the gap. The convenience of living over the maintenance rooms, no downstairs neighbor to balk. ]
trust me, no need.
[ Just a little morbid inside joke that no one but Nate finds funny.
When he gets to the right floor he stops at the giant hole, not so much stymied as amused. There's a little lip at the edge of the apartment door and he could easily make the jump if there was something to hold onto, but these futuristic apartments have sliding, seamless things only slightly recessed into the walls and with some minor monkeying he makes it across.
Wedged in the niche he knocks thrice with his knuckles. ]
[ Just a little morbid inside joke that no one but Nate finds funny.
When he gets to the right floor he stops at the giant hole, not so much stymied as amused. There's a little lip at the edge of the apartment door and he could easily make the jump if there was something to hold onto, but these futuristic apartments have sliding, seamless things only slightly recessed into the walls and with some minor monkeying he makes it across.
Wedged in the niche he knocks thrice with his knuckles. ]
[ Only takes a couple seconds for the door to swing open, and for Ian to greet him brightly. ]
Hey, man!
[ A little nod gesture. Come on in. Nary a single word about the enormous fuckoff hole out front. Nothing to see here.
On the coffee table in front of his couch, some obvious V1 bong designs out of what what seems to have once been tequila bottles. Reduce, re-use, recycle. ]
Hey, man!
[ A little nod gesture. Come on in. Nary a single word about the enormous fuckoff hole out front. Nothing to see here.
On the coffee table in front of his couch, some obvious V1 bong designs out of what what seems to have once been tequila bottles. Reduce, re-use, recycle. ]
I saw you got a new welcome mat.
[ When was the last time Nate got high? Harry Flynn, he thinks, over a decade ago. Nate was never really a fan of the stuff, doesn't like lacking control despite being an arbiter of chaos, but he can acknowledge that releasing the vise-grip he has on certain things might behoove him.
He casts a quizzical eye at the "bongs" and has a violent flashback to the accusation he leveled at Ian when they were sixty stories in the air. ]
You've been busy.
[ When was the last time Nate got high? Harry Flynn, he thinks, over a decade ago. Nate was never really a fan of the stuff, doesn't like lacking control despite being an arbiter of chaos, but he can acknowledge that releasing the vise-grip he has on certain things might behoove him.
He casts a quizzical eye at the "bongs" and has a violent flashback to the accusation he leveled at Ian when they were sixty stories in the air. ]
You've been busy.
Edited (will my phone ever stop making shit word choices: news at 11) 2020-10-05 03:05 (UTC)
[ He beams at welcome mat. Takes a second to stick his head out the door, there's some scrapey thumpy scratching noise, and then he pops back in to close it behind him.
He's got that enthusiastic kind of energy he usually only gets about new projects or, once, a monster bat. Has him flopping down too enthusiastically on his couch, jostling the the little pleasant pot paraphernalia tray he'd had on the middle cushion. Ladies and gentlemen, the professional is back. ]
Dude, you have no idea. I tried to take up glass blowing once back home. One time, and never again. At least woodworking won't burn your fucking hand off.
He's got that enthusiastic kind of energy he usually only gets about new projects or, once, a monster bat. Has him flopping down too enthusiastically on his couch, jostling the the little pleasant pot paraphernalia tray he'd had on the middle cushion. Ladies and gentlemen, the professional is back. ]
Dude, you have no idea. I tried to take up glass blowing once back home. One time, and never again. At least woodworking won't burn your fucking hand off.
[ Nate shuffles in, invited for the first official time without climbing through the window to be a huge pain in the ass. He gets a better look at the scenery now: the work space, the desk, a notebook he remembers very well. The table in front of the sofa appears to be an experimental zone. ]
So...I guess this is a better alternative?
[ He hazards, because he honestly doesn’t have the context for what qualifies as “better.” Manipulating existing containers with Ian’s power is at least a twofold endeavor, permitting for good practice and a potential, tangible result.
Nate settles on the other side of the couch, hopelessly out of his depth and looking the part.]
I’ll be honest, I don’t know a lot about this stuff? I’ve tried all kinds of weird crap abroad, but I don’t...like- you know. Do anything regularly.
So...I guess this is a better alternative?
[ He hazards, because he honestly doesn’t have the context for what qualifies as “better.” Manipulating existing containers with Ian’s power is at least a twofold endeavor, permitting for good practice and a potential, tangible result.
Nate settles on the other side of the couch, hopelessly out of his depth and looking the part.]
I’ll be honest, I don’t know a lot about this stuff? I’ve tried all kinds of weird crap abroad, but I don’t...like- you know. Do anything regularly.
[ And that catches Ian's attention enough to have him pause mid-way through twisting the top of an herb grinder. It's like he's checking for a second to make sure he's not getting screwed with — never heard of the Beatles — but no, this one actually seems legit. ]
Wait, so...
[ On comes the creeping absolute delight that only a stoner experiences when getting someone who doesn't smoke weed to smoke weed, particularly for the first time. ]
You, like. Arm wrestle sharks and blow up, I don't know, banks, and raid tombs and summon the Mummy on accident, but smoking weed is like...
[ A little gesture to his head, fingers out, explosion sound. Mind blown. ]
Wait, so...
[ On comes the creeping absolute delight that only a stoner experiences when getting someone who doesn't smoke weed to smoke weed, particularly for the first time. ]
You, like. Arm wrestle sharks and blow up, I don't know, banks, and raid tombs and summon the Mummy on accident, but smoking weed is like...
[ A little gesture to his head, fingers out, explosion sound. Mind blown. ]
I've done this before, thank you.
[ Nate's mouth thins in an obvious lack of amusement as Ian starts to look at him as though he's some kind of virgin. Peyote in Mexico, sure. Ayahuasca in Peru, yeah, why not. There are certain things Nate has indulged in under very specific circumstances, mostly out of a need to be polite to hosts. He liked it well enough, but not in a long-term sense.
The only addiction Nate suffers from is adrenaline high. ]
Seeing as my job involved inhaling compressed nitrogen in high-pressure environments, and before that, avoiding getting shot at by mercenaries, I kinda like to keep my wits about me.
[ Nate's mouth thins in an obvious lack of amusement as Ian starts to look at him as though he's some kind of virgin. Peyote in Mexico, sure. Ayahuasca in Peru, yeah, why not. There are certain things Nate has indulged in under very specific circumstances, mostly out of a need to be polite to hosts. He liked it well enough, but not in a long-term sense.
The only addiction Nate suffers from is adrenaline high. ]
Seeing as my job involved inhaling compressed nitrogen in high-pressure environments, and before that, avoiding getting shot at by mercenaries, I kinda like to keep my wits about me.
[ Nate's lack of amusement only seems to encourage his, and the smile never fades as his chin dips back down to focus on his well-practiced smoke prep ritual. ]
Yeah, okay, you got me there. Usually way less shooting in my line of work. As in, like, none.
[ Much less compressed nitrogen, but that one's a nonzero amount. ]
It's also horrifying that you got fucking shot at, by the way, in case I haven't mentioned that. Just so it's on record.
[ A pointed glance up through whatever hair's fallen in his face.
And then he kindly offers over the product of his handiwork, because it is Customary to let the underexperienced go first. ]
Yeah, okay, you got me there. Usually way less shooting in my line of work. As in, like, none.
[ Much less compressed nitrogen, but that one's a nonzero amount. ]
It's also horrifying that you got fucking shot at, by the way, in case I haven't mentioned that. Just so it's on record.
[ A pointed glance up through whatever hair's fallen in his face.
And then he kindly offers over the product of his handiwork, because it is Customary to let the underexperienced go first. ]
[ Ian clearly did this often enough back home to be incredibly deft at the process and Nate experiences the strong urge to make another California comment. He refrains for both their sakes, because he agreed to come over but it wasn't exclusively for the temptation of engaging in recreational drugs. It wasn't even, like, 50% of the reason. More like 10%.
The company's nice. ]
Ha. You have no idea.
[ Nate has lost count of how many gunfights he's been in, which is perhaps a fact that should probably concern him as he takes the lead and the lighter. He remembers a bong in Harry's place a long, long time ago, some ridiculously over-the-top glass thing that got pulled out when Harry wasn't feeling his nicotine itch. This one is a little more similar to the waterpipes Nate has seen in Laos. ]
Can't believe you didn't wanna serve tea with your thuốc lào.
[ He says amusedly, flicking the igniter. Mouth, mouthpiece. Lighter, weed. Nate doesn't fill the chamber completely with smoke because it's been a while and he doesn't exactly trust himself or his memory of similar experiences yet, tugging the bowl out and inhaling.
He doesn't cough - the hit isn't hard enough - but the sensation of smoke in his lungs reminds him too potently of explosions and he grimaces when he exhales. ]
The company's nice. ]
Ha. You have no idea.
[ Nate has lost count of how many gunfights he's been in, which is perhaps a fact that should probably concern him as he takes the lead and the lighter. He remembers a bong in Harry's place a long, long time ago, some ridiculously over-the-top glass thing that got pulled out when Harry wasn't feeling his nicotine itch. This one is a little more similar to the waterpipes Nate has seen in Laos. ]
Can't believe you didn't wanna serve tea with your thuốc lào.
[ He says amusedly, flicking the igniter. Mouth, mouthpiece. Lighter, weed. Nate doesn't fill the chamber completely with smoke because it's been a while and he doesn't exactly trust himself or his memory of similar experiences yet, tugging the bowl out and inhaling.
He doesn't cough - the hit isn't hard enough - but the sensation of smoke in his lungs reminds him too potently of explosions and he grimaces when he exhales. ]
[ The truth of it is his smoking died off tremendously sometime in his mid twenties, from a purely comparative standpoint. It became more of a once or twice a month with his TA kind of habit, right up until the end of the world. Luke may be one of the smartest humans Ian's ever met, it's a crying fucking shame he didn't believe in his ability to succeed as much as Ian did. Not that it wound up mattering, of course, but his brain found other fantastic applications in the form of a - setting up amazing (often too severe in Ian's opinion) perimeter defenses and b - cross-breeding marijuana in a greenhouse made primarily of plastic sheeting. God bless him. The hours between 9 p.m. and 7 a.m. were the fuck it hours, and there's surprisingly little to do sans electricity or metal.
Also, Ian's coping mechanisms were shit. Largely still are. ]
Gesundheit.
[ He says lightly, because he's never heard of thuốc lào and it's a classic, timeless joke.
Impossible to miss that expression considering how raptly Ian's studying him for a reaction; interesting that he seems to find more displeasure in that than Ian's ever seen him have knocking back any kind of hard liquor. ]
Is it a taste thing or a throat thing?
[ That expression; asked while holding a hand out to relieve Nate of his burden. ]
Also, Ian's coping mechanisms were shit. Largely still are. ]
Gesundheit.
[ He says lightly, because he's never heard of thuốc lào and it's a classic, timeless joke.
Impossible to miss that expression considering how raptly Ian's studying him for a reaction; interesting that he seems to find more displeasure in that than Ian's ever seen him have knocking back any kind of hard liquor. ]
Is it a taste thing or a throat thing?
[ That expression; asked while holding a hand out to relieve Nate of his burden. ]
[ He feels a little bad not immediately enjoying something that a clear and significant amount of labor went into, but it's probably better to be honest than force himself to like the flavor. If they do this again Nate is going to request something with a stronger profile, no matter how artificial, like the weenie he is. ]
Taste. Hit's not bad but it's strong.
[ He hands the bong and lighter over after replacing the bowl, apologetic. ]
One time I almost, uh, died in a burning building, so. Really smoky flavors remind me of that.
Taste. Hit's not bad but it's strong.
[ He hands the bong and lighter over after replacing the bowl, apologetic. ]
One time I almost, uh, died in a burning building, so. Really smoky flavors remind me of that.
[ It's not like he's gonna take personal offense to it, he didn't create the taste or feeling of smoking pot. Nobody really likes it, except those exceptionally too-extra stoners you meet from time to time who get all braggy about it for some reason.
Ian does cough toward the end of his, but it has absolutely nothing to do with the hit and everything to do with the offhanded mention about almost dying. ]
Jesus, are you serious? Man, if I knew that I would've made you a fucking... scone or something. I'm sorry.
[ And thus Ian enters quick problem solving mode, short term and long term solutions. Step numero uno is to set the bong down and head to the kitchen to harvest a couple of ice cubes to drop in. It's not gonna solve it, but it could help. They won't make tobacco flavoring anymore but he can probably swap out SunnyD for a few weeks and mess around with flavoring drops. Really, though, it's gonna have to be a baked goods situation. That's the best answer here.
But anyway, back in his seat and with the bong nudged gently in Nate's direction on the table — for whenever, no pressure — he's gonna work on fishing out his MP3 player and flipping through it absently while he focuses on the more important part of this conversation. ]
What the fuck happened?
Ian does cough toward the end of his, but it has absolutely nothing to do with the hit and everything to do with the offhanded mention about almost dying. ]
Jesus, are you serious? Man, if I knew that I would've made you a fucking... scone or something. I'm sorry.
[ And thus Ian enters quick problem solving mode, short term and long term solutions. Step numero uno is to set the bong down and head to the kitchen to harvest a couple of ice cubes to drop in. It's not gonna solve it, but it could help. They won't make tobacco flavoring anymore but he can probably swap out SunnyD for a few weeks and mess around with flavoring drops. Really, though, it's gonna have to be a baked goods situation. That's the best answer here.
But anyway, back in his seat and with the bong nudged gently in Nate's direction on the table — for whenever, no pressure — he's gonna work on fishing out his MP3 player and flipping through it absently while he focuses on the more important part of this conversation. ]
What the fuck happened?
You can make pot brownies next time.
[ Nate waves off the gesture, touched, but there's no way Ian could know. Even hearty fireplaces during winter tend to smell a little too much like burning floor ties and ceiling joists for Nate to find them excessively cozy. There's always a distant attachment to the scent of the air after a grenade goes off.
Nate watches him mitigate the issue and dig out that brick of an MP3 player, taking a minute to let the inside of his chest settle. ]
Remember that crazy lady with the cult I told you about? From my first big job?
[ He probably does, Ian's apparently got a mind like a steel fucking trap when it comes to personal details. ]
They set fire to the place after they thought they'd trapped us inside. It was this huge old chateau in France, kind of turns into a maze when everything is lighting up like tinder.
[ Nate waves off the gesture, touched, but there's no way Ian could know. Even hearty fireplaces during winter tend to smell a little too much like burning floor ties and ceiling joists for Nate to find them excessively cozy. There's always a distant attachment to the scent of the air after a grenade goes off.
Nate watches him mitigate the issue and dig out that brick of an MP3 player, taking a minute to let the inside of his chest settle. ]
Remember that crazy lady with the cult I told you about? From my first big job?
[ He probably does, Ian's apparently got a mind like a steel fucking trap when it comes to personal details. ]
They set fire to the place after they thought they'd trapped us inside. It was this huge old chateau in France, kind of turns into a maze when everything is lighting up like tinder.
[ He ultimately settles on one that has him way too amused with himself, a tiny playful smirk quirking up at the corner of his mouth as it plays out of the headphones-turned-quiet-speakers. It's a little tinny, but he's of the strong belief that you can't really substitute listening to music with somebody out loud no matter how much fancier brain implants are.
His amusement doesn't last long when faced with the story Nate's telling, and that smirk fades out quickly into a deeply knitted brow. ]
Dude, what... the fuck is your life? Seriously, like, every anecdote you've got is the most horrifying shit ever. You're legitimately making my apocalypse look like a McDonald's ball pit.
His amusement doesn't last long when faced with the story Nate's telling, and that smirk fades out quickly into a deeply knitted brow. ]
Dude, what... the fuck is your life? Seriously, like, every anecdote you've got is the most horrifying shit ever. You're legitimately making my apocalypse look like a McDonald's ball pit.
[ By the time Ian has selected something Nate has decided to venture into another hit, wrinkling his nose this time but finding the sensation a little more muted than before with the addition of ice. At least one of them knows what they're doing. He's just setting the bong back on the table when he recognizes the tune, half a second away from remarking on it when he is swiftly waylaid.
Nate has the good grace to look a little embarrassed, scrubbing at the back of his neck with one hand. At the time everything is just a new problem to deal with: something to mitigate in the moment, an occurrence to survive. He never stops to think about it even after the fact.
It's easy to look at them through the lens of an adventure. ]
I dunno, it's just...my life? It's not always shoot-outs and falling out of planes, it's-
[ He sits up a little, trying to explain it with earnest sincerity, probably over-using his hands. ]
I've gotten to see places no one has even heard of. Places people thought were mythical, touched history that nobody's ever written down in a book. People talk about Shangri-La like it's a fictional city - it's not. I've been there. I've- I've seen the sun rise over jungle ruins that humanity's forgotten about for centuries, I've found artifacts from civilizations that we've lost. It's not just me getting into catastrophic firefights, it's...being in another place, and seeing another time.
Nate has the good grace to look a little embarrassed, scrubbing at the back of his neck with one hand. At the time everything is just a new problem to deal with: something to mitigate in the moment, an occurrence to survive. He never stops to think about it even after the fact.
It's easy to look at them through the lens of an adventure. ]
I dunno, it's just...my life? It's not always shoot-outs and falling out of planes, it's-
[ He sits up a little, trying to explain it with earnest sincerity, probably over-using his hands. ]
I've gotten to see places no one has even heard of. Places people thought were mythical, touched history that nobody's ever written down in a book. People talk about Shangri-La like it's a fictional city - it's not. I've been there. I've- I've seen the sun rise over jungle ruins that humanity's forgotten about for centuries, I've found artifacts from civilizations that we've lost. It's not just me getting into catastrophic firefights, it's...being in another place, and seeing another time.
[ Nate was justifiably worried, having thought he might as well cut his losses and go all out on the asshole effect. Sacrificing a nascent friendship to save Ian from his own damn self would have been a valid cost. People have disowned him for less.
His mouth twitches into a small smile at the sentiment. It still isn't something he thinks about often, which is why it takes him a long moment to remember that he did do that. It's just right, to do those things.
As a kid, he'd always wondered whether he could have helped that old woman in the house. Whether with medical attention she might have survived the heart attack, and it ate at him for months while Sam pushed the same thoughts away. Attempts can be futile, but at least he'd have tried. Ian saying roughly the same thing serves as a reminder of that. ]
It's not easy. [ He chuckles quietly, tapping his thumbs together. ] But for what it's worth - and at the risk of straining your gratitude - I'd do it again.
His mouth twitches into a small smile at the sentiment. It still isn't something he thinks about often, which is why it takes him a long moment to remember that he did do that. It's just right, to do those things.
As a kid, he'd always wondered whether he could have helped that old woman in the house. Whether with medical attention she might have survived the heart attack, and it ate at him for months while Sam pushed the same thoughts away. Attempts can be futile, but at least he'd have tried. Ian saying roughly the same thing serves as a reminder of that. ]
It's not easy. [ He chuckles quietly, tapping his thumbs together. ] But for what it's worth - and at the risk of straining your gratitude - I'd do it again.
Edited 2020-10-05 23:03 (UTC)
[ He can't even deny it. Bitter, sweet, just the right amount of flavoring, the kind of thing that burns the insides of your nostrils. A little grudging, partly because he's indulging his older brother, Nate admits: ]
It tastes like home.
It tastes like home.
How dare you show you care. Frankly, man, I won't stand for it.
[ The absolute worst, most effortless impression of offense anyone has ever done. It isn't just humor that has him failing to commit, it's...
Well it's kind of flirting around a more serious sentiment. Makes it hard for him to decide exactly how he wants to handle this, to determine where the line falls between being too awkwardly sincere or too irreverently dismissive. Trying to pick and choose because too much of one might mean driving someone away, and he's fucking terrified of that. Alternatively, it might also mean opening himself up too much so that when something else drives them away it sucks harder than it already would have. It's probably easy for other people, he thinks, to react to this kind of thing. To just... have a normal goddamn conversation and be themselves authentically during moments of emotional intimacy without overthinking it.
He spends a couple of seconds cursing himself, frustrated, negotiating some kind of balance before he ultimately decides to just be blunt. ]
Seriously, I'm not... good at this. Any of it. Just-- so you know, no amount of gratitude-straining or... anything else is gonna make me excommunicate you. I'm-- I genuinely don't know how to react to it, it's baffling as fuck that you give enough of a shit to do it, so if it seems like I'm being... weird about it, it's just that. Not that I don't... like it. Hell, even saying all of this has me freaking myself out, so don't expect anything out of me aside from knock-knock jokes and catchy commercial jingles for like a week.
[ The absolute worst, most effortless impression of offense anyone has ever done. It isn't just humor that has him failing to commit, it's...
Well it's kind of flirting around a more serious sentiment. Makes it hard for him to decide exactly how he wants to handle this, to determine where the line falls between being too awkwardly sincere or too irreverently dismissive. Trying to pick and choose because too much of one might mean driving someone away, and he's fucking terrified of that. Alternatively, it might also mean opening himself up too much so that when something else drives them away it sucks harder than it already would have. It's probably easy for other people, he thinks, to react to this kind of thing. To just... have a normal goddamn conversation and be themselves authentically during moments of emotional intimacy without overthinking it.
He spends a couple of seconds cursing himself, frustrated, negotiating some kind of balance before he ultimately decides to just be blunt. ]
Seriously, I'm not... good at this. Any of it. Just-- so you know, no amount of gratitude-straining or... anything else is gonna make me excommunicate you. I'm-- I genuinely don't know how to react to it, it's baffling as fuck that you give enough of a shit to do it, so if it seems like I'm being... weird about it, it's just that. Not that I don't... like it. Hell, even saying all of this has me freaking myself out, so don't expect anything out of me aside from knock-knock jokes and catchy commercial jingles for like a week.
[ Nate sits up and Ian pivots a little, twisting from forward to side facing with his knee folded perpendicular to the floor and spilling over onto the center cushion. It makes for a stable temporary base for the bong, momentarily forgotten and resting still.
It's completely, totally charming. It's the sincerity and the hand movements, but it's also just... the explanation itself. It's kind of magical sounding, actually, the whole picture Nate paints. Shangri-La and jungle sunrises, and Ian's also picturing a probably wildly inaccurate image of old ruins and sunbeams and dust.
And you know what, about being inaccurate-- ]
You should show me sometime.
[ Just floating the idea. In case it isn't clear, he nods vaguely at Nate's hands where they hover. ]
With the... thing. The memory thing.
[ Outside of nonconsensual dreams, he's only shared a memory once or twice. Experimental, for the most part. He knows how it works, it might be cool for stuff like that.
It also makes people super fucking uncomfortable, so he's deliberately casual about the request rather than demanding. ]
It's completely, totally charming. It's the sincerity and the hand movements, but it's also just... the explanation itself. It's kind of magical sounding, actually, the whole picture Nate paints. Shangri-La and jungle sunrises, and Ian's also picturing a probably wildly inaccurate image of old ruins and sunbeams and dust.
And you know what, about being inaccurate-- ]
You should show me sometime.
[ Just floating the idea. In case it isn't clear, he nods vaguely at Nate's hands where they hover. ]
With the... thing. The memory thing.
[ Outside of nonconsensual dreams, he's only shared a memory once or twice. Experimental, for the most part. He knows how it works, it might be cool for stuff like that.
It also makes people super fucking uncomfortable, so he's deliberately casual about the request rather than demanding. ]
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